I realize that you folks have dutifully read my whines more often than you should have to, and I apologize for that. Life can get frustrating at times, though, as you know. Things seem to have been thrown at me and my wife fast and furious lately. Added to the other stuff, my antibiotic, which often causes dizziness in others, has now decided to cause it in me (big-time), though it’s never done it before.
As a Christian, it’s very easy to wonder why the Lord let’s some things happen. My faith is generally strong and my prayer life is pretty active. However, I often find myself apologizing to the Lord for so many of my prayers being self-centered instead of Christ- centered. I don’t go to church these days, for reasons that many of you understand. What bothers me more, though, is my lack of witnessing for the Lord, especially now that I’m basically off Facebook.
After one dizzy spell earlier today, I faced the fact that I felt tired and not altogether well, and decided to take a nap. As I do sometimes at night, I pulled my Bible from a shelf of the night-stand, only to see several days-worth of dust on it. Granted, I also keep one in my office and two in my truck, but I knew I hadn’t used them during that time, either. I was rightfully ashamed of myself for not living up to the Lord’s expectations of regularly studying His Word. Why should I expect any favors from God, when I can’t keep up such a simple part of the relationship? Luckily, God doesn’t seem to keep score too closely.
Also as I often do, I closed my eyes, asked the Lord to show me the words I needed, dropped a fingernail somewhere in the pages and opened the book. My finger rested on the first verse of the 22nd Psalm: “My God, my God, why hast thou forsaken me? Why art thou so far from helping me,…” For those unfamiliar with the crucifixion, those words were quoted by Christ on the cross. Still, I’m sure every Christian has felt that way at times. Here the Lord humbled me by letting me see the dust on the Bible, but then choose a verse for me that let me know He understood how I felt. He’s that way, I’ve learned over the years.
Whenever I land on the first verse of a chapter, I consider it a cue to read the whole chapter, so I did. It had some more things that applied to me personally, but much more that applied to Jesus Himself. I was reminded of some things. Mostly though, I learned the lesson of the dust on the Bible. © 2016